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and he was mercifully pleased to hear, and measurably to answer, my petitions. In this humbled state I left Worcester, being favoured with the love and sympathy of many worthy friends in it and in the neighbourhood. Catherine Payton, who then lived at Dudley, was one, who wrote a sweet consolatory letter to a friend, which was given to me to peruse in which she said, "If she must go, let her take some Friends' books with her; and may she be preserv. "ed, like Lot in Sodom, a preacher of righteousness.d un

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I went on horseback to Liverpool, where I was kindly received by an agent of my father, to whom he had written to procure me a passage; and his wife, being a tender spirited religious woman, was like a mother to me. She was not of our society. I staid at Liverpool about two weeks before I could get a conveyance, in which time many friends took kind notice of me, and I contracted a near affection for some of them. I believe their minds were drawn in true love to me; and, being grounded, I trust, ›

on that foundation that is not to be shaken, it has stood many years, and, I hope, will remain. But this favour was the great Master's kindness, for which, with multiplied mercies, vouchsafed to me, a poor worm, may my soul reverently and devotedly follow him.

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'I went on board one of the packets, with my mind humbly turned to the great Preserver of men, whose ways are in the deep, and beheld in the mighty waters; but, though it was quiet, I was soon sick and went to bed, the sea being rough and the vessel leaky; and in the night there was such a storm, that it seemed likely we should be lost. The poor seamen were in great: confusion, and I in the cabin alone, not expecting to see the light of another day. But O, the unutterable love of Christ, who, in this time of great danger was pleased to be near, and he kept my mind in a sweet calm, so that had he been pleased to permit the sea to be my grave, that night, I believe my spirit would have been mercifully received into everlasting rest. O my soul, mayst

thou never be unmindful of his manifold ⚫mercies and deliverances, and walk in fear and humble obedience all the remainder of thy days, that when the close approaches, thou mayst be ready to enter, with the glorious bridegroom, into the marriage chamber.

The storm abating, we were favoured to arrive, the next day, at our intended port; where I was received by my near relations with affection; but my new situation opened new trials. Here I was as one alone, and viewed myself like a sparrow upon the house-top, a pelican in the wilderness, or an owl in the desart.. O, the many exercises that I passed through ! the Lord only knows them; but my prayers being strong to him for preservation, he was pleased to hear my cry, and at seasons to feed and comfort my needy soul. I found my safety to depend on keeping much inward, and not mixing with the people; though some of the genteeler sort showed me marks of respect, and invited me to their houses; but I deelined going, for their company was bur

thensome to me. I used to walk in the fields alone, save my dog, who was my constant companion. O, I can feelingly sympathize with honest minds, who are remotely situated and placed as alone:" and I wish also to encourage them singly and steadily to lean upon, and trust in, the God of Israel, who will not leave or forsake his poor wrestling seed; but will work deliverance for them," in the way that is best. Ida Hearing that two women were come to the island, who were said to be Quakers, I went to see them, in hopes of having in them companions in the right way; but, to my painful disappointment, I found them. playing at cards: so I visited them no more. 1. Though many were the trials, yet I had, and have, cause to believe that my going to the island was right. One of these trials, which came very near to me, was this. My dear father, whom I tenderly loved, and who loved me much, requested me to do some thing which I felt was opposite to the cross of Christ; and there were present at the time one or two of those called gentlemen; but, not

daring to offend the precious Witness, I declined the compliance, though it was a great trial to offend my dear father. None but those alike circumstanced can tell how great is the trial in such a case. My dear parent was so displeased that I should disobey him, that it was a considerable time before he was reconciled. I endeavoured by watchful attention and obedience, to evince from what the refusal arose; and after a time his love not only returned, but I think was greater than before; so what abundant cause there is to trust in the Lord Jehovah, who has a right to be loved, honoured, and obeyed above all.

6 When I had been on the island about a year and a half, my dear mother one day asked me if I should like to go and see my friends in England that summer. I then made but little answer to her kind offer; but, being deeply humbled and very desirous to be rightly directed, a great fear came over my mind, lest, by being gratified in what was so very desirable, the company of valuable friends, I should be going away from that

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